威望 1424 点
英文版我是谁Who Am I-f|
英文版我是谁Who Am I-f
Translated from the Chinese origin
into English in 09/1998.
The perplexity brought by this incident confused me. I had definitely finished in that previous year, how was it possible that I was treated to recovery and returned home? My brain waves had already run away from my dead body, how was it possible for a person to continue living for these ten-over years in my home without brain waves?
As I thought about it, I could not help but asking myself who I was. Was I the one who had recovered and returned home or the one who was stealing Mr. X’s hardware?
Perhaps somebody would say that that “I” who lived in Mr. X’s home was simply not me, not me Ah Ming, but Mr. X himself. His brain waves had been seriously disturbed and thereupon forgot his own identity and thought he was another person instead. Just think along this line: if Ah Ming was truly finished at that critical moment, could her brain waves continue to live? And, if, on the other hand, she was still a living person, how was it possible that her brain waves leave her. So, the one set that left her dead body that night was that of Mr. X.
But, Mr. X had certainly died, how could it be him? Even if it was him, how was it possible that he had my, this is, Ah Ming’s memories, and my character, state of the mind, manner, deportment, tone, habits, liking and dislikes, concepts, thoughts about matters and articles, subconscious, unintentional gestures, etc., etc.. If it was not me, who else could it be?
Furthermore, in the fatal night, at that very critical moment, I fell into a withered and blurry state, saying subconsciously to myself that the time had come. I was frighten and sad and had the reluctance to leave my husband and my young ones. Suddenly there came a series of very powerful and rapid bombardments which almost turned the earth upside down and made me forgot what century it was. And suddenly I saw bright light and this set of brain waves of mine was thus thrown out from the body. There were several persons around; a doctor was pressing an electrical device hard on my chest which created that powerful shock. What went through my mind before that moment was my own internal mental experience, how was it possible for Mr. X to be involved and to think that he was me.
There was that question: “If Ah Ming was truly finished could her brain waves continue to live?” The brain waves could certainly continue living. Am I not an example of it? Then “If she was still living well how was it possible that her brain waves leave her?” Had my brain waves not left at that time? Had my brain waves not lived in Mr. X’s house during these ten-over years?
To be continued…