昨天和一个网友谈寂寞以及个性，关上电脑，却突然想到了小时看露天电影的事。
    小时看电影是奢侈的,兴奋的,常常为看电影不惜跑老远,我家住地委大院,离地委大院半公里的地方是军分区大院,军分区大院经常放电影,通常是在山坡上竖起两个大木桩，挂上一方雪白的影幕，战士们以连为单位坐成方阵，前面就是那些些家属和小孩，以家为群,还有就是我们这些旁边大院的妇女和孩子自己带着板凳来看免费电影，边看电影边小声地拉着呱，晚风飘着山野的清香，有蚊虫在身边飞舞，还有流萤。看烦了随时可以走出人群在山坡上玩玩孩子们的游戏。
    可是每次我都会在家人坐定后，自己拿个小凳子，坐到影幕的后面去，去看背面电影，其实是一样的，唯一的不同是主人公如果是左手，在背面就变成了右手。妈妈总是觉得七八岁的我一个人独自坐在背面看电影的样子很寂寞，但是她不知道，那是一种怎样的快乐的事呀。
    我可以不用在意别人的眼光任意的哭或笑，也可以陶醉地自己小声的和电影里的人物对话，甚至高兴了还可以和电影里的人物一起跳舞。遇上小电影机换片子时，我还可以居高临下地，借着山坡和黑影看着电影正面那些电影的人们，把他们的举止也当作电影来看。
    寂寞在那时刻是外在，而充实和幸福的陶醉才是真正的内在。
    寂寞是生命的最本质的样子，就像星星只能永远的独自挂在天空，人的心也是一样的，世界上没有两颗完全相同的心，寂寞就是不可摆脱的，而摆脱寂寞如果寄托在外人的身上，那你可能将获得更大的寂寞。只有自己努力把自己变成一个厚重的人，才可以学会在漫漫人生路上做到从容镇定地处置寂寞。努力让自己在寂寞的外在形式里充实上不寂寞的内容，或是学会品尝寂寞，把寂寞化解成一种外在的形式。
    我不寂寞，就如现在一个人走在正午的阳光里。
    心里有蓝天白云，还有每一个过往的人，他们的眉眼里有多少的故事，还有路边的花草和小飞虫，它们有多少的浪漫模样让我细细品来，慢慢说来，更不用说，那些美丽的文字在心中的积淀，随时来凑凑热闹,我何有寂寞可言呀?!
  
    一个人的时候真的是寂寞吗？
    一颗心的时候真的是寂寞吗？
    只有你说寂寞时才是寂寞吧。
    戴望舒说:我的寂寞是条蛇.....,他说这话时,我想他已经找到做伴的了,就是那条蛇.

[ 本帖最后由 雪梅 于 2007-6-5 21:57 编辑 ]

第一次看露天电影是王文娟的红楼梦，跟妹妹搬小板凳去公园看的，美好的记忆。

觉得林黛玉就应该像王文娟那样美。

露天电影是小时候最为期盼的活动了。
追着看，什么都看，就是不厌烦。

比较讨厌的是两个电影《红色娘子军》（革命现代舞剧）、《山姑娘》（阿二八尼亚）因为从头到尾没有一个人说话。

看露天电影---孩提时的快乐。

但是,我还是感觉到LZ的寂寞啦.

所以我回家了,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

那我怎么办呢?????????????

mind your own business,,,,,

I don't want be told that you come back sadly,
so ,if you find something that you don't like just did not occur.

thanks for that i'm looked like always in your mind......
but ,,can you mind your own business???????

Thanks for your care,
Because you always live in my heart.

哇！好文章啊？！！梅斑竹原创啊？

Long time  didn't hear you.what are you doing?
you are minding your business?

I miss you so much.

this is my day ,i just finish my homework in sgchinese,,so i copy it here for answering your qustion.
26 Jun 2007
  I find that nothing would be wrote for my writing. How  can I do my homework? It is seems problem to me. So I decide to record what I have done today.
7am ,I get up, brush teeth ,take shower, eat three peaches and drink a cup of coffee for breakfast.
8.10am—8.25am on the way . I go to local government. I well have a meeting there.
8.30am. I attend the meeting of People’s Congress Committee . there are 6 government officials  would change their position to higher ,so that they have to report how about their career before ,what they have done in their career life, how they do their job----well or not, what they plan in their future if they are in their new position.
10am,all of the member of committee vote that they agree /disagree or abstention about the six officials can be in new position.
11am, listen to report which is about how to carry <Food Sanitation Law> out , by secretary of government Health Bureau.
11.45am, I  have simple lunch with all of member of committee together.
12.15am, After lunch ,I go to clinic to be vein injected 500ml because I have catch a cold nearly one week.
2.30pm,I attend meeting follow-up. We listen to report which is about how to carry <Environmental Protection Law> out, by secretary of government Environmental protection agency.
3.20pm. listen to report which is about the government of economic development zone how to construct and service ,by the chairman of the government of economic development zone.
4pm,meeting end,, I go to our company it is in the economic development zone.
4.20pm ,I have meeting with production department/engineering department/quality assurance department in our company ,we discuss how to wipe environmental protection problem out what we have met,,,
4.50pm , I have another meeting ,with quality assurance/ quality control/production /sales, we discuss how to correct our mistake immediately that is about our buyer complaining our production.
6.30pm, I will have dinner with my family.
7.30pm, I am going to badminton club playing badminton with my friends.
9-9.30pm, I am going to finish playing badminton and go home.
10.30pm, I am going to bed,,,,
( most of this homework is wrote  when I am in the boring meeting,,,,,)

看露天电影，，，童年的重要活动。。

哇塞。了不得了，狼还会鸟语。。

Just so so.

Take good care of you self, you were having your intravenous done early in the morning last Friday, look like this cold is a nasty one.

thanks a lot!